You may ask yourself "is there anyone so alone?" but there's no beep before the dial-tone

So, I am leaving Good Samaritan. I submitted my two weeks notice on Sunday and will not be there in May. It was a long time coming but I just got pushed over the edge. I got in a confrontation with another worker. She yelled at me for using the over head page 3 times during church service. I had no other choice. None the less she caused a big scene in front of a group of visitors and everyone who caught wind said she was wrong. The administrator made her apologize and HR made me write a statement. I had no problem with her I just wanted to know what I should do in the situation when i need to page but its during church service. So they made a big deal and made me out to be a victim and that they supported me and then I got a call saying I was not to work Wednesdays anymore. They were gonna give me a Sunday morning shift. There was also no explanation of this decision. When I got there Sunday I was pretty sure of my plans. And then I found no letter no note nothing. They just dismissed it and punished me. I figured that they must not think I can handle a week day shift appropriately. Also the day girl is getting surgery this week and even though I covered her vacation I guess I'm not good enough to cover this now. So it's bull and I'm done. I thought I was getting somewhere by having a week day shift and they took it away.

I submitted my resume to at least 7 places since. Yesterday I got an email from Woodforest bank to do a phone interview. I called a little bit ago but got voicemail so I left a message. Shane is very amusing. He is very unhelpful when it comes to job stuff. He tries but he doesn't really know. Besides I know damn well most places will see USMC and look no further.

We got to see our lovely friends Brooke and Glenn this weekend. I had missed them so much!! And I got to show Brooke my wedding gown. Her excitement made me excited again. Plus I hadn't worn it since I picked it up in August so it was good to see I still love it.
Shane and I have pretty much settled on our reception venue. We want to see it in October before we lock it down. It is a great price which is fantastic because to set up what I want we need the extra money for tropical flowers and put of season fruit. It's pretty exciting.

Shane could leave any day. Military.. never exact. I'm getting a bit anxious because its so close and I feel like there's so much to do. And they haven't given him any extra time off.

Well I have a whole list of things to do today so I should really get started on that.

down the rabbit hole

i am not happy. i just.. cant seem to get things right. aside from having the man and dog of my dreams i have crap. and im trying to change things. but no one is throwin me a bone. i submitted my resum to a dream job and havent heard anything.. its been a week. i feel like im drowning. shane hasnt heard anything about the deployment. not sure where hell be going. i realized last night i am not independent. i am because i have to be. im actuallt very dependent and right now i have no one i can depend on.. im frustrated. ughhh just a liittle help would be great. just the job thing... please

Remember Me

Remember when I had a blog that I wrote in. And i had this resolution to write in once a week.. yeah.. what happened to that?

LIfe has happened once again. Shane got reactivated for this year. He is being deployed to bahrain for 3 months at some point too. I had to almost give up good sams. i only work one day a week there now because i could work 7 days and just not see shane ever.

Ive been feeling really alone lately. Besides him being away during the week I just dont hang out with people. The ones I would have hung out with moved to another state. and i havent spoken with in a couple weeks. wether that was my choosing or not i havent even gotten a "how you holdin up" but its cool friends arent supposed to be sympathetic. theyre supposed to be able to judge you and youre supposed to be ok with it... bc youre friends.

im just lost lately. more longterm thoughts in the process. shane will be going back to school for aviation after this and i gotta figure out what im doing. life is not what it should yet be.

i oughta get dressed... we're off to geocache soon