I honestly don't feel like posting today. It's been a fairly uneventful week and I'm really not in a good mood today. I haven't even done my yoga today, just not motivated. I suppose since this is a blog/diary thing I should explain why but I don't really wanna. there was a regular conversation last night after Shane got home. Amusing stories etc and well.. My name is not Christine Connors.. first and last.. That is all. No clue why is all that's been said. No apologies just don't know why....... Welcome to the second week of active duty.
*Update: After a very uncomfortable day of silence I finally mentioned something at dinner this night. Conversation: Me-"You're awful quiet..."Him-"I fucked up.. I don't know what to say" Me-"Usually its always good to start with I'm sorry. Ine=stead of saying nothing and making me feel like shit even more. Since I'm the one hurt here."Him-"...I'm sorry." Me-"Yeah.. shit happens. its alright. I feel slightly better now thank you. Do you feel better?" Him-"No. I still fucked up" Me-"Yeah.. Well get over it. i'm over it you should be too. You being silent is hurting me more. When you punish yourself I get hurt more. Knock it off and move on." We're ok now. Just sucks that I once again ha to initiate a fix. Boys.. if you fuck up say you fuck up and try to make your fuck up better Don't just punish yourself because that just causes more damage.. Jesus.*
Worked.. Got exceedingly annoyed at my job recently. We have this stupid award.. The All Star Award. And my manager was allowed to nominate 2 associates. Everyone assumed I would be one because I was associate of the month a couple months ago (the nominee is supposed to be AOM in the past 6 months). Well we find out who he nominated.. not me. I don't think the nominees were associate of the month recently either. For whatever reason it bothered me.. alot. I go out of my way and work my ass off in that place. The thing is the award isn't even a bonus or raise.. all it is is recognition and a new shirt and name badge. Wow. Yet it meant something to me just like the store at least did. However, I've noticed they don't seem to care about my success and like they always ask on our surveys, I no longer care about the success of the store. I wrote out a two week notice. Haven't turned it in though. I've been actively searching for a new job.
I actually found a really perfect job in my search and I've got my fingers crossed. its a receptionist at an animal clinic. i am perfect for office work and multi tasking. It's not retail! And i love animals. I sent them my resume. I'm pretty excited.
Went to Brooke and Glenn's for dinner the other day. They showed use George Forman grill.. Next time steak kids lol. It was a good time none the less. Shane had a very short week and by week i mean like a day. He didn't have to go due to the crazy amount of snow. Extra day to spend with him.
Last night I went to Pizza the Hut with my dear Rachel. Laughs were most definitely had. Zumba didn't happen but maybe next week. We'll see. Greasy food seemed like a good alternative.
I think that's enough now. My vocab is byzantine, meaning complex or intricate and my German is Ich habe mich verlaufen, which means I'm lost. Yeah..its a lot of words that equal two.. that German. I'm actually thinking of changing my focus to Romanian.. to help Shane. Oh and I did practice guitar. I relearned the intro to Smoke on the Water. I'm better on that than twinkle twinkle now :)
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