Week Wrap Up

This week had some ups and some serious downs. Saturday Shane and I went on a date day. We went to the mall so I could find a dress for a wedding we're attending next month. I feel bad for the boy, having to shop with me, it's not a pretty sight. We actually managed to find something quite nice that I can wear for other occasions as well. We had a dinner at Houlihans before our movie.Delicious and I really want more now.. Hmmm. We saw No Strings Attatched. It was really really really funny. The one downfall it had was the crowd it attracted. It was all teens to 25 year olds, the kind that can't shut up for 5 minutes and need to be posting on their twitter how good the movie is during the movie. But the humor in the movie kinda made up for the annoying people. I would definetly recommend checking it out. Oh my I almost forgot the most interesting part that made me smile the whole night.Shane made me go into a jewelry store to have a special finger sized. I know it doesn't mean much. And none of the rings in that store were my style at all. But it made me all giggly. And my finger is a 4.. maybe even 3.5 TINY Hehehe

After our movie we came home and passed out. Shane had to be back in Newburgh by 10.So Sunday I was gonna do laundry at my parents. All of my fabric stuff smells like smoke I've noticed from living in that house for 22 years. I got everything ready and went to start the car. Th battery was dead. When we got the mail last night Shane decided to to open it in the car so the over head light was on, and he never turned it off. It was not a good omen for the week. my mom came over and we got it working anyway.

Monday I worked all day and then when I came home I was feeling rather ill, My cold had been building. I decided I wanted to take a nice warm bath to both avoid the annoyance of the water going cold in the shower and because it could clear my sinuses. Halfway through filling the tub the water...stopped. No more came out of the tap. So I turned it off and waited a bit then tried it again.. nothing. I ignored it for much longer and then went to the bathroom and went to wash my hands and there was no water from the sink. So I checked the kitchen.. nothing there either. Now it's a problem. So I call home and tell my mom and she says i should call my dad. And he said he'd come home early to help me out. Long story short the pipe bringing the water into the house was frozen.. and I was up until 1am getting it thawed out and working.

The rest if the week was pretty boring, thank god. Other than my cold completely toppling me. I for some reason didn't call in sick. Our Cashier for Monday and Tuesday did both days, I however felt I was going to pass out and still rang people out. Wednesday I only went in because I knew I had to cover as manager. And Thursday I was in copy center, so I pretty much was necessary. I left early both days because the managers said I looked like hell (awesome). And today is my sick day finally. Of course I feel better today than I have all week. Whatever.

I guess that's about it for this week. I'll leave you with that Shane and I agreed is or song.

Belated Blog

So I missed yesterdays post. I had to work and then Shane and I visited with Brooke and Glenn so it was lateish when we got home and I just didn't think of it. But I'm still getting my blog in for the week either way.

 Not much happening this past week. Sunday Shane and I went out to dinner and then to walmart. We went to the one in Albany, which is massive and killed a lot of time but oddly got things done we didn't even think of before. Ended up spending a good 90 bucks but got some necessary items. We bought a new comforter set. It was marks as like $49 and rang up as $29 so that was awesome. Got new bathroom rugs also. Mostly it was my mind thinking of how to update this house. I even looked over the paint and picked a color for the bedroom. It's a great color and color name hehehe "Lion". So now I have 2 room colors picked and 2 to go. I bought a coupe plants. For some strange reason I've wanted to add life to this house. It makes it pretty and makes it healthier with fresh air. I don't even think Shane minds that its becoming less and less of a dude space. At least I don't want to paint anything pink.

The rest of the week was just work and snow. Sucked. I don't like the weather channel so I'm always suprised... Woke up to the mess Tuesday. Went to work in the mess. In the 8 hrs I was there the mess changed to sleet and ice. Came out to have to scrape a 1/4 inch of ice of my entire car. Awesome. This week is like drowning after being thirsty. Like "oh man we could really use some snow.. mm thanks.. ok.. srsly... too much" and then you drown.

Shane scared the shit out of me Thursday night.. He got out of work early. He's doing night shift now (sucks we don't get to talk). SO he was done with work at like 2am. So he came home. Didn't call, just came home from Newburgh. So I'm sound asleep and I hear a noise. The back of my mind says "hmmm that sounded like the door.. couldn't have been. Could it?" I slowly wake up more and listen. Now I hear some on moving and wake up more.. my  eyes open "There's some one in the house! Who is in the house?! What do I do?! DO I have a weapon.. A bat? No I have no weapon. I am a girl living alone with no self defense and there is some one in the house!!" I freak out a little but am frozen with fear sitting up in the bed. The bedroom door opens. The person walks in and sees my sitting up in the bed "You're sitting up." laughs Shane. "ASSHOLE!!" says I. It was a good time.. really.

So that about sums it up. Ummm my words.. oh dear I don't know if I remember. They're written down but in the other room. Booger. But my German was bitte hilfen sei mehr meaning please help me. I did very little this week no yoga I had a pain in my foot. and no guitar,, no excuse there. It's not a failure yet, I'm not giving up. I also finished my book of short stories by Hemingway. I've been reading it for years but now it is finally done. I'm counting it as my book for January.  That is all. Glenn put up awesome pictures of me on his photography sight.. Maybe I'll put those to fill space in here. Done. See you next week.

It's Friday...

I honestly don't feel like posting today. It's been a fairly uneventful week and I'm really not in a good mood today. I haven't even done my yoga today, just not motivated. I suppose since this is a blog/diary thing I should explain why but I don't really wanna. there was a regular conversation last night after Shane got home. Amusing stories etc and well.. My name is not Christine Connors.. first and last.. That is all. No clue why is all that's been said. No apologies just don't know why....... Welcome to the second week of active duty.
*Update: After a very uncomfortable day of silence I finally mentioned something at dinner this night. Conversation: Me-"You're awful quiet..."Him-"I fucked up.. I don't know what to say" Me-"Usually its always good to start with I'm sorry. Ine=stead of saying nothing and making me feel like shit even more. Since I'm the one hurt here."Him-"...I'm sorry." Me-"Yeah.. shit happens. its alright. I feel slightly better now thank you. Do you feel better?" Him-"No. I still fucked up" Me-"Yeah.. Well get over it. i'm over it you should be too. You being silent is hurting me more. When you punish yourself I get hurt more. Knock it off and move on." We're ok now. Just sucks that I once again ha to initiate a fix. Boys.. if you fuck up say you fuck up and try to make your fuck up better Don't just punish yourself because that just causes more damage.. Jesus.*

Worked.. Got exceedingly annoyed at my job recently. We have this stupid award.. The All Star Award. And my manager was allowed to nominate 2 associates. Everyone assumed I would be one because I was associate of the month a couple months ago (the nominee is supposed to be AOM in the past 6 months). Well we find out who he nominated.. not me. I don't think the nominees were associate of the month recently either. For whatever reason it bothered me.. alot. I go out of my way and work my ass off in that place. The thing is the award isn't even a bonus or raise.. all it is is recognition and a new shirt and name badge. Wow. Yet it meant something to me just like the store at least did. However, I've noticed they don't seem to care about my success and like they always ask on our surveys, I no longer care about the success of the store. I wrote out a two week notice. Haven't turned it in though. I've been actively searching for a new job.

I actually found a really perfect job in my search and I've got my fingers crossed. its a receptionist at an animal clinic. i am perfect for office work and multi tasking. It's not retail! And i love animals. I sent them my resume. I'm pretty excited.

Went to Brooke and Glenn's for dinner the other day. They showed use George Forman grill.. Next time steak kids lol. It was a good time none the less. Shane had a very short week and by week i mean like a day. He didn't have to go due to the crazy amount of snow. Extra day to spend with him.

Last night I went to Pizza the Hut with my dear Rachel. Laughs were most definitely had. Zumba didn't happen but maybe next week. We'll see. Greasy food seemed like a good alternative.

I think that's enough now. My vocab is byzantine, meaning complex or intricate and my German is Ich habe mich verlaufen, which means I'm lost. Yeah..its a lot of words that equal two.. that German. I'm actually thinking of changing my focus to Romanian.. to help Shane. Oh and I did practice guitar. I relearned the intro to Smoke on the Water. I'm better on that than twinkle twinkle now :)

You Remind Me Of Home

This week was my first living in this house without Shane. The weekend was tough enough because we had many silent moments and awkward statements, not wanting to mention but still feeling what Monday would bring, or take away. It didn't really hit me much Monday. I guess because I've been here in the mornings when he leaves for work or for a reserve weekend. Throughout the day i got a little sadder and sadder. I knew I'd be going home to an empty house. And I had to do my shopping for my meals for one. Around 6ish I was at work and fixing some signs when I looked up at the front door and in walked Shane! I was dumbfounded. He came over to me and all I could say was "You're not supposed to be here?!" He brought me two roses and hung out with me until it was time to leave. We went to walmart and shopped together He was very helpful.

He had come home to pick up some stuff and because he had gotten information on his orders for deployment. So the good news is he won't miss hat wedding that I'm in, and he won't miss our anniversary. My birthday on the other hand. But I've never been big for birthdays. Its just another day and 24 isn't much special. So I was really glad I didn't have to spend Monday night alone.

Tuesday I had the day off so I went to my parents and did all my laundry. It was also my brothers birthday so I gave him a gift and just hung out there. Packed up more stuff and brought it over. Tuesday night, however... Shane called and we talked for a good hour. Nothing interesting. A while after I was off the phone with him i had a panic attack. I've never lived alone, I've barely every slept a night in a place alone. And when i did that it was the house I'd lived in for 23 years. I felt so alone and scared. i had to run to turn on the TV so there was sound and lock the door that instant. I then did mindless chores like folding laundry to calm down. It worked but it was still disheartening. This isn't a very big house but it felt huge without him in it. And its a lot easier to feel secure when you have a marine by your side.

I made it through the night and so far I'm doing alright. I get sad just about every night. I talk to the cat a lot. She bites back. I managed to get today off (they called and said they were over in hours and if i wanted to take a day off I could). But the days aren't bad at all. The nights are a bitch though. I have a few things to keep me busy today anyway. Writing this for one.

I didn't do my yoga or exercise on Tuesday when i should have. But my excuse is, I went to put on the new DVD I got for Xmas and the woman's voice bothered me so much it put me off for the day. I probably wont use that one. Today I will try and use the set I saved on YouTube. And maybe do some push ups or something lol. I think next week I'm going with my friend Rachel to a Zumba class. Its like a high energy cardio booty dance thing lol. It looked like fun and she wants someone to go with so what the hell. I did manage to learn my new vocab word and a phrase in German for the week (I saved them in a comment on last weeks post). My vocab word is caliginous. It means misty, dim or dark usually regarding the sky. For example; after all the fireworks had bursted their bright bulbs of color the air was caliginous, the luster was gone. and my German phrase (I even learned how to pronounce, and spell it) mein Deutsch ist nicht sehr gut which means My German isn't very good.  It only seemed fitting. I also go t out my guitar! It took me till Wednesday though. Better late than never. It took me a while to tune it. I hate tuning. But I got it as close as a newbie like me could. And I relearned twinkle twinkle little star. I think it counts because when i pulled the guitar out I had no idea how I played it before.. it was like new. That resolution is gonna be tough. Playing hurts my fingers and practicing over and over. Oi. I'll keep trying though.

I guess that's it for news. Oh Shane and I ordered a new GPS from bestbuy with gift cards and stuff we had and it came in the mail yesterday. It was the first thing that had been mailed to ME at this address. It was really exciting. It's a Garmin etrex venture handheld. We're hoping it will do a lot better for geocaching. But the thing is tiny. It fits in my hand and the screen is like 2 inches. We'll see though. Well I have to clean up this room a bit so I have space to do yoga. Until next week. I leave you with a little ditty sung by Ben Gibbard (my favorite).