So I See

My Lasik is done. That was by far the most horrifying experience of my life. I know everyone says that in a little while when my vision stops being cloudy and I'm all healed I will never regret it etc. Right now I don't say I regret it but I never want to do it again and if I were able to experience how it would feel before hand I never would have done it. But I am alright and I can in fact see right now. There was a slight problem with cutting the flap. The laser wasn't able to cut the flap completely so when they went to do my left eye the Dr. had to manually cut it with surgical scissors. It was the most painful horrifying thing I have ever gone through. I couldn't see but I could feel the scissors snip and I could hear them. I was never more afraid and there was nothing I could do. I moaned in pain a few times and the Dr (who I am not in the least bit fond of) said I was making it more difficult. But they cut through. The laser itself didn't hurt at all. When I sat up I didn't stop crying like a baby until I got home. It was just too much for my nerves. But it's over and I'm okay. My poor mother had to watch it on the screen. Her maternal instincts wanted to save me because she could tell it hurt, but she wanted them to finish and get it right. I'm sure I scared the hell out of all the people in the waiting room. I came out bawling. I didn't want to. I hate crying in public but I couldn't help it. I was so overcome by my fear and pain. I came home to my mothers and took a nap. I'm doing alright really. A little shook up when I think about it. And it really hasn't hit me yet that I can see. I'm still wearing glasses (protective non prescription..they're extreme cat eyes with gems.. ridiculous and hilarious there will be  picture soon.) and everything is still a little foggy. I have the follow up tomorrow morning and then work. So yeah... Things are.. alright. That's all I can really say. I don't think anyone I know had the same flap issue so no one could warn me for that. If it hadn't been for that I'm sure it would have been a better experience. In time I'll forget all about it. Right now, scary as hell.