So I See

My Lasik is done. That was by far the most horrifying experience of my life. I know everyone says that in a little while when my vision stops being cloudy and I'm all healed I will never regret it etc. Right now I don't say I regret it but I never want to do it again and if I were able to experience how it would feel before hand I never would have done it. But I am alright and I can in fact see right now. There was a slight problem with cutting the flap. The laser wasn't able to cut the flap completely so when they went to do my left eye the Dr. had to manually cut it with surgical scissors. It was the most painful horrifying thing I have ever gone through. I couldn't see but I could feel the scissors snip and I could hear them. I was never more afraid and there was nothing I could do. I moaned in pain a few times and the Dr (who I am not in the least bit fond of) said I was making it more difficult. But they cut through. The laser itself didn't hurt at all. When I sat up I didn't stop crying like a baby until I got home. It was just too much for my nerves. But it's over and I'm okay. My poor mother had to watch it on the screen. Her maternal instincts wanted to save me because she could tell it hurt, but she wanted them to finish and get it right. I'm sure I scared the hell out of all the people in the waiting room. I came out bawling. I didn't want to. I hate crying in public but I couldn't help it. I was so overcome by my fear and pain. I came home to my mothers and took a nap. I'm doing alright really. A little shook up when I think about it. And it really hasn't hit me yet that I can see. I'm still wearing glasses (protective non prescription..they're extreme cat eyes with gems.. ridiculous and hilarious there will be  picture soon.) and everything is still a little foggy. I have the follow up tomorrow morning and then work. So yeah... Things are.. alright. That's all I can really say. I don't think anyone I know had the same flap issue so no one could warn me for that. If it hadn't been for that I'm sure it would have been a better experience. In time I'll forget all about it. Right now, scary as hell.

Fricken Lasers

I went to my Lasik consultation today. After a good 2 hours there with a lady that wouldn't stop talking about her breasts and depression (ok so that was only like a half hour at the very end.. but seriously don't want to know about it) I am ready to get the procedure. With the exception of the boob lady everyone was very helpful and informative and professional. I'm pretty excited about it all really. It was a little more expensive than I had hoped but its going to last where I won't need glasses or contacts for a good 20 years. I think that's a decent investment. it's $2,099 per eye but by insurance does a 15% discount and for this month they had a special extra 5% off. so for both eyes it comes up to $3,389.88. And I have it financed 0 down 0 interest for 6 months I believe it was. So well worth it.
And also as long as I do all of my follow up exams (1 day 1 week 1 month and 3 months) they cover any touch ups that may be done, in case my eyes change in my lifetime!

The next thing on my list is to get my hair did. I'm thinking soon. Very soon. I gotta figure out the number for the place I go to and then probably within April.

Not much else happening in these parts. Heading to my parents in a little bit for spaghetti! YAY. I love home cooked meals that I don't have to worry about.

Sugar Snow

Yeah..I spoke to soon. We had a sugar snow. It may be a sugar snow but it sure aint sweet. For the record, from being such a nerd as a child and LOVING the Little House books I actually do know why it's called a sugar snow. A sugar snow is when the weather gets warm and the trees start circulating sap but then the snow comes back and so the trees produce more sap for longer. So the people that make maple syrup get a better "crop". There's a whole chapter about it. ..Anyway, I wasn't amused. It wasn't a big amount but I was soo ready to not see it for a long long time.

I did not get my lasik done as of yet. When I called the woman asked me how long I'd been wearing my glasses. Apparently this meant like how many days I'd been wearing them instead of contacts. My answer was 0 lol. So to do all the exam stuff they want me to wear glasses for at least 3 days before it. I don't really know why. I'm assuming it has something to do with me sticking my fingers in my eyes. Gives them time to heal. So I have the appointment scheduled for Monday and am wearing my glasses until then. And then it seems the next procedure day is the following Wednesday. So I'll probably be zapped then.

Not much else going on. Doing a lot of working. Yesterday I spent my shift in the Clifton Park store helping them prepare for their inventory. I've never worked in another Staples. It was weird. But I didn't have to help customers so that was good.

Shane and I have gotten to spend a lot of time together this week. He was alternating day and night shifts so he came home a couple nights already and he'll be home in a few hours tonight too! I sadly have no more days off until Monday for my appointment.

RIP Kamakazi

Oh yes. And my fishy died. I don't really know when lol. I guess today. Shane cleaned the tanks of the two fighting fish and something must have shocked the fish. Something with the temp of the water or idk. But I walked by it today and thought "hmm why is the lid gone.. and then noticed the tank was empty.. So I of course assumed Shane forgot to put the top on it and he jumped out and the cat ate him.. Which makes sense. Except I think the cat wouldn't eat him but play with him. Plus his name was Kamikazi.. so it was fitting. But yeah turns out Shane is a murderer.. LOL. It's ok. I never took care of him (or his brother who remains, Yakuza) I need a new one though. But I loved their names so the new one will probably be KamakazII.. oh I am clever... Anywho that is all for tonight. I just felt like updating.

Spring is In The Air!!!!!!

Ah yes, The sun is out and the birds are chirping. Spring has finally reached upstate New York. Just in time to. I was starting to get really...blah. With the arrival of these bright days that last a little longer every day comes fun and adventure. And some how I managed some much needed time off.

I had last Thursday off. It consisted of me running all around first to Glenmont to visit a friend. Then to the bank where I fixed my online viewing and set up a CD for $5000. The great news is that in 2 years I'll have more than doubled that. Take that resolution to have money in the bank. I finished up there and went to my parents. I was in great need of conversation that was outside my job. I had gotten to talk to Shane a total of 4 minutes all week so i was feeling a bit lonely. I got to my parents and no one was home! They had gone to turning stone and my brother went to work. So I spent about 4 hours talking to myself anyway lol. I did my laundry and packed up more mess. The majority of what is left over there is garage sale stuff. That's at the very end of April. So I have tot get a move on sorting and pricing. Oi.

Friday, although Shane was home and I was exhausted by staying up until 5 when he got home, I worked. I was planning to act sick all day in hopes they would send me home early. I didn't have to. They were over in hours on payroll and I volunteered to leave as a joke and they agreed. I was pretty excited. I haven't worked a 4hour shift in forever. When I got home, even though I wanted to be active and enjoy the day, I passed out. After waking up I wandered around the yard with Shane. Soaked in some sun. We decided to go to the movies that night. We've been wanting to see Rango for a bit. We went to outback for dinner before and got to the movie at 10:35. It was pretty good. A good amount of laughter. I recommend it.(Next time we wanna see Paul though).

On Saturday we had to take advantage of the sunshine and go geocaching. We slept in alot and got a bit of a late start but the sun held out. We snagged 7 yesterday. One of which has been a thorn in our sides for awhile, It was a lot of fun and I got to try out my new Garmin ETrex Venture. For some reason the coordinates downloaded wrong for our first cache and I damn near threw the thing. But Shane checked on his phone and got us fixed. It was the only one of the day that was wrong. No clue why. It took me a while to get used to using it. I'm used to the car style gps where you walk the line towards the flag on a map. With this one it's just easier to walk in the direction of the arrow on the compass as the distance goes down. Really easy to use. The one thing I don't like about it is that it doesn't have much room for notes. I assumed I could write the clue for the cache in the note section, which I did manually before we left. I didn't think to check to see if it did. It wrote some of it but it doesn't have a lot of space. It cut off half the clues. So it looks like I still have to have a paper trail to keep my clue information correct. But its really handy other than that. We had a great time with it.

When we decided to quit for the day (there were two that were a bit too swampy) we went over to Lowe's. Shane needed a grill part and I got sucked into thee garden section. Oh Lowe's is a dangerous place for a homeowner that doesn't want to spend money lol. Shane bought me a HOE! I need it to get into my garden. I just giggled about it the whole time. We then went to Walmart. Got some gardening gloves and looked at sooo many things I want to do. We also bought Just Dance for the Wii. We had played it last week at Shane's sisters house for a little bit and it seemed fun. It's also a heck of an exercise so what the hell. After all that we headed to dinner. We decided to go to the Hibachi place. OH MAN did that hit the spot. The miso soup alone brought me back to life. Oooo and I have left overs (not for long). I even tried a bite of Shane's Spicy Tuna Roll. I didn't like it. Hes I need to try the one that doesn't have raw fish because that's my biggest problem with it, But actually i gave up on the bite because of the texture. I hated that mush too it. EW

After our long day we came home and watched Machete from redbox. Ummm that was interesting. It was definitely a testosteriot. I don't want to see young pretty ladies like Jessica Alba make out with Danny Trejo again. That's gross. I saw a lot of boobs, including Lindsay Lohan and Jessica Alba. Steven Segal and Robert Dinero were in it, I didn't see that coming and laughed. And I never ever want to see Lindsay Lohan dressed up like a nun again.. ever. That was just wrong. But it was amusing for the gross violence and how many times I shouted ew.

The movie end at about midnight so we of course played Just Dance until about 3am. We did every song once and wow, sweat city. That was a hell of a workout. We got the first of the edition and now we already want the others. It's so much fun. Shane was kicking my ass until I got into a groove with it. There is one song that is kind of tribal (I think it's by fat boy slim but the avatar that does the moves had a headdress on) and I rocked that song. I had the highest score of the whole game. It was kind of weird. ooo I just stretched and my shoulder area is sooo sore from it. Guess I don't need to go to zumba class with this game (there's a version that's zumba too lol)

AND after all that I still have all of today and tomorrow off. WOOO. It's like a mini vacation for me. And a perfect weekend. Shane goes back to base in about an hour. But we had such a good time together this weekend. We needed it. The rest of my day I plan on gardening and seeing my family.

I've also made some decision, all on my lonesome. As I'm pretty sure everyone saw on facebook I want to cut my hair. Just like in that picture I posted. I may wait until May. I have a wedding to be in at the beginning of May. I know my hair is disagreeable but what the heck. It'll grow back. I mean I cut 16 inches off 2 years ago and ALL of that is back already.



I tried to fit. It was a close one.



I've also decided I want to get Lasik. Oddly enough that idea came from a coupon from best buy. Just seeing the word lasik made me think about it. I have had glasses or contacts since I was 7 years old. I don't remember what it's like to see as soon as I open my eyes in the morning. I used to say the reason I didn't want lasik was because it took my until I was well into high school to even be comfortable with having glasses. I felt like a dork. Finally I liked them and thought they looked good (and they do, don't get me wrong) but I don't wear them, ever. On average I probably wear my glasses for maybe 10minutes a day. Before the contacts go in and after they come out. And I don't know how many days I go to work and my left eye has no make up and my right eye has all. Because the contact was irritating my eye. Plus I have money I should use it and this is a really good investment. I'm hoping to go to my consultation tomorrow and, since I already have made the decision that I want it, I might get the procedure done right then.

So that's the high and low of it. I'm gonna get to hoing in my garden (hehehehe). We actually had some flowers come up that I don't know where came from or what they are. (They're in the pictures.) I am soo soo glad it is spring.

OOOO SHINY!

I work and work and work, and come home and work. And I'm really tired. The good news is Shane got his new truck finally. I find it to be ridiculously unnecessarily large. It's a toyota tacoma. It's so fresh and new and has little details i like I want a new car. But no. Other news... umm.. nope don't think I have any. My life is so interesting.

Got an awesome letter. From an awesome friend. It made my day.

Here's some pictures of Shane's new truck. I wish I were interesting. Or had time to update when i actually have time to do something.

way too big



it also has a backup camera



Hungry?



The table setup at the bridal shower.
Her mother made everything.



Again, not all that much going on. Work. More nasty NY weather. Shane went to a pre-department seminar this weekend. I wasn't able to go even though i really wanted to due to work and a bridal shower. He brought home a lot of information which succeeded in making me cry a lot. I know this is happening and there is nothing I can do about it but it just made it a lot more real. It's just so much and I can't really even describe everything due to both having too much in my head to pinpoint one thing and because I'm not really supposed to say anything detail wise. So needless to say, it's hard.



My juicy meatballs.



Sunday I attended/helped set up a bridal shower for Nichole, a girl I work with. I'm a bridesmaid in her wedding. Her mother is ridiculously crafty so it was pretty cool. (Aside from not knowing pretty much anyone that was there.) It just made my mind wander even more to the future and what my shower will look like. ETC. *sigh* Don't even have the stone yet lol. I got to make my delicious juicy meatballs too. Shane got to have the leftovers. He had like 7. They came out really really good.



The owl for my dad.



I got my box of books in the mail. It was like a nerdy Christmas. I also realized why there were so cheep. More than half were less than 125 pages. But I like short books/novellas. I even managed to finish one already. I read The Call of The Wild first. It was the shortest book (65 pages..that's like an article really lol).It was alright. There was a lot of animal abuse and dog fights, violence, and such. I understand it being necessary to the story but it bothered me. I have more than enough books for my reading resolution, so that's good. Haven't gotten any further with my own books however. I finished the little owl I was building though! I'm going to show my dad when I see him tomorrow, for his bday gift. And then I think I'm just gonna stain the wood.



From the inside.

I tried a new recipe for dinner last night. It was chicken (which made me nervous,) but it came out really good. It was a pepperoni chicken roll up. It took a long time to make though. Had to pound the chicken flat then season it and roll it up. Fry some pepperoni, brown the chicken in the pepperoni oil, then bake it for 40 minutes. Shane seemed to like it. I forgot to put cheese in the middle which I think would have helped but oh well. They came out looking like little cinamon rolls because we rolled the pepperoni into the chicken and attached it with a toothpick while ti cooked.



Pepperoni Chicken Rollup



I am still desperately searching a new job. Retail is turning me into an angry woman. It does that, no lie. It could also be that I work so much. 40 hours is too much. *sigh*

Sometimes you find coal, somtimes you find diamonds

I decided to start a second blog to work on creative writing projects. I'm pretty sure that was the point of starting this original blog but it ended up being just a weekly journal. And very not well written. The new blog will at first consist of old work that I have done (the first post is already up and its a sort of about me written 3-5 years ago). But I hope to put new work in there soon enough. I have been reading this book about how to write a novel and after getting past the first chapter that I completely disagreed with its actually been very helpful and made me want to write. A couple weeks ago I got so interested by it that I stayed up very late one night and wrote the beginning chapter of a novel. I don't really know how to write fiction. I have trouble coming up with a fake idea and running with it. But what I can do is take some pieces from my own life and spritz them in a way that they make a story. I mean I can see the novel of certain things (again why I started THIS blog). So I'm attempting to create Nicholas Sparks -esque works from 3 of my past (and current) relationships. At least the ones that actually counted for anything and seemed serious. I really like the way the one i started a little bit ago came out. I hope to be able to critique it and make it better and then even what I put in the other blog I hope others will critique and let me know what they think. (I do have this silly fear of putting my idea out on the web and some one stealing my story and making millions.. but ehh lol). So please if you're interested go and follow that blog as well. Let me know your thoughts positive or negative. I do think someday I will actually become an author, so hey then you can say you helped me write said novel.  Here is the link http://coalordiamonds.blogspot.com/ or you can just click the link on the right and it'll take you right to it. :)